Stress and Ethical responsibility"

For the past couple of weeks, i've been stressing. Last days of this semester and things are being piled on top of one another. Have not been sleeping much. Have not been taking care of my health much. My body is in the shits right now. My friend said that her spiritual adviser told her that the best doctor is sleep. I need to schedule an appointment ASAP! This semester will be done in 4 days! Whohoo! I hope to do a lot within the next three months. With the new art skills that i learned in this semester, i plan to strip down my walls and create new art for them.

Been thinking about my career these days... another thing that has been heavy on my mind. When i decided to go back to school, i though i knew exactly what i would do once i completed the program. But now, because of lecture classes that i have taken in school, because of me becoming more aware of my spiritual responsibility, i find that i am having difficulties grasping my initial goal. At this point, i don't think i would like to do any brand design or advertising. I think its ethically irresponsible of someone who is on a path to awareness. I can't see myself being a part of an institution that lives off of the manipulation of the masses psychology to make them feel that in order to validate their value, they must partake in culture of consumption. Consumption that is not relevant to life. Consumption of artifacts that becomes absolute in the matter of seconds in this digital era. Consumption that only leads the mind to a deeper spiritual enslavement to the material culture. I care not to be a part of that. I was having a conversation with a stranger yesterday about ethical responsibilities. He quoted Cornell West and said(paraphrasing), "if you want to be ethical, know that you will not be financially successful. So choose wisely." I have pondered on that. In fact i have already factored that idea into my daily life. I want to be on my path of awareness. It is so much sweeter to know that i will provide spiritual nourishment rather than spiritual degradation. Some may find that off and think i'm crazy, but most great leaders and thinkers treaded that path. I hope to one day incorporate what i have learned as a designer/artist into my goal as a spiritual guide to anyone who wants it.


In Awareness
Aaza