"The Fool"

I cried late last night. It burst out of me without a warning while walking home. Luckily it was late, quiet and was only a block away when it burst out of me. Sadly the reason for my somberness was nothing new to me. What frustrated me so was that i was crying for a reason that i am too familiar with yet i've allowed it to continue to have a hold on me. If i ever have a clear understanding of individuals that find pleasure in inflicting pain on others, it will probably be the moment that i will have traveled far from this physical world and become aware of the human phenomena.

A fool. those worlds seem to find its way into my mind and right on time. A fool... I am that fool. Always wanting to find the good yet finding myself at the short end of the stick, stomped on, spat on, and left in the deep cold ocean to drown in my pitiful sorrow. How pitiful it is. I want to blame others for my misfortune, my dismay, and i do... but at the end of it all, i know it is me. I have allowed dark forces to enter my world. They mock and they feed off of my despair. Vultures... Impostors.

I do hope to see those dark forces feed off their own mirky waters in the near future. I do hope to see that. Is that unfair of me to think this way? It is my only comfort for now. I am human. I cant deny my anger, my hurt, my pain... but...still... i am a fool... to find myself here yet again. My only emissary at the moment is Karma.

IN Awareness
Aaza