The Today Show and a lil Pill"

Every once in a while when i wake up in the morning at 7am, i turn on my tv which is usually set at chanel 4(i don't have cable... not much of a tv person). I turn on the Today show with Mat Lauer, Meridith Veirra, Al Rocker and that other lady. I usually turn it on to either know what time it is or check the weather. I sleep on my couch a lot, especially in these past few months. My alarm clock goes off at 5:45am and it is situated by my bed(a mattress). I dread getting up from my couch to walk to my bed to turn it off. But i do it most mornings. Most because like i said, i sleep on my couch a lot. I don't know why i have my alarm clock go off almost two hours before i have to get up. Maybe i like the sensation of waking and going back to an unconscious state, but not fully unconscious. Maybe i like the feeling of being aware that i am sleeping. Because for one hour i drift in and out of sleep and my body goes through many shifts... Sometimes i go back to full REM, sometimes i'm just floating above my body. Sometimes... i just lay there with my eyes closed. And when 7am hits, i know i have to be 85% awake, in this physical world. Remember being a kid, in the back seat of your parents car, on your way home, from an awesome day at the park, and the only reason you left the park was because the clouds got dark, and it started to rain? Remember that joyful fatigue. Half awake, and the motion of the car soothed you so much that you had to give in to the fatigue...but still could not find yourself deep into dreamland, because it just felt so good to be aware of how your body felt... the release and the awareness... that's how i wake up in the morning.

So every now and then, when 7 am hits, i turn on Mat, Meridith, Al, and the other lady. If you ever watch that show, i think you will agree with me that watching that show is like taking the blue pill. Remember what Morpheus said? "The story ends. You wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe." Watching that show is like popping ten of those pills all at once. And the crazy thing is, millions of people across the nation watch that show. Their morning drug. Sedated for the rest of the day and reload the next morning. I used to be one of those millions and then something happened. I started taking one less pill every once in a while until i was down to none. I have not taken the red pill yet. Don't think i am completely prepared for that kind of awareness.

Not yet. soon come.

In Awareness
Aaza