"Once again"

Feel like i've slipped... once again. But i guess, it was just a matter of time before these emotions came running back to haunt me. However i am not depressed... I am not sad... It's this feeling of loneliness that i just can't shake from my system. Still searching. Searching for something to make me feel whole. To make me feel purposeful. I pick up books to fill my mind with information. I search and search to tap into whatever it is that is driving me to that place where i am supposed to be. The destination is still unknown. Yet i take the ride. Watching, listening, learning, hoping that i get it when i get there, wherever there is. That loneliness drags me around like a broken maid dragging her broom to sweep up the mess the world has made. I've got my guide, although he is not totally what i had in mind... nevertheless, a guide, with which i am ever so appreciative. I've got my mental strength. Took some time to even admit to that. But i've reached that point and i am ok. But... that loneliness haunts me. I see "them" at times, waiting to be born. I see "them". I see "THEM" as well... at the corner of my eye... Swiftly passing me by. I wish i knew why. And now, i tread this path stronger than i've ever been before, yet lonelier than i've ever known before.

Ma'at Kha Re(aka... Nin'Aaza El)
eight regions, situated in a circle and a dot is the ninth.......awareness