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Sunday, September 30, 2007

Was i hypnotized?

So i went to see a hypnotherapist today. I was somewhat excited about being hypnotized. As you all may or may not know, i have a problem with words. So i thought i'd try hypnosis to maybe get to the root of the problem. I tried a psychotherapist but for some reason, maybe due to the fact that they cost too much, or, maybe i felt they were causing extra issues in my already screwed up mental, i always end up ending the relationship before it got too deep. For the past few weeks, my communication issue has been a major problem for me especially now that i am in school and expressing myself verbally is key in all of my classes. My Art History teacher told me i have a problem articulating what i want to say, and i thought to myself, FINALLY!!!!!! Someone is finally honest with me. Although i was crushed, i realized i had a major problem and it needed to be handled immediately. So After seeing two therapists, and a few psychics, i decided to see a hypnotherapist. I walked into the office today and i was immediately relaxed by the dim lights and the new age ambiance of the space. Budha, Stones, Flowing water, and incense burning. I thought wow, i am going to finally face the root of my problem and pluck it out of me today and begin a new outlook on life. The therapist was a real comforting and intellectual woman. I felt very relaxed around her and wanted to tell her so much about me. She sat me down on the "COUCH" and placed a headphone on my head and a pair of opaque glasses with flickering red lights. The session was interesting. Lots of suggestions, and my body was almost numb. But i was fully aware of everything. There was one point when i lost control and cried hard, but im not sure... i think it was just me wanting to release some tension... Her voice was very comforting and really was so clear that it felt as if it became a part of my psyche. Her voice felt as though she was in my head, and i felt to weightless and the only thing that was holding me was her voice. To be honest.... I think that was the most interesting thing that happened in the session... She tried to get to the root of my problem, but i think the problem with me was that her suggestions were as though they were forced and that is one thing i can not deal with. I can't deal with someone telling me what to do with my emotions, and telling them what i feel. We supposedly went back to my childhood, but i think i was making shit up in my head just to move it along.... LOL... So the session ended and i felt like i accomplished nothing.... Although i did feel very relaxed.

So, im not sure whether i was hypnotized or not. I mean i remember everything, there were no time lapse and they took a chunk load of money out of my pocket which pissed me off.....LOL.... The only thing is, for the rest of the day, i was super emotional....

I wonder if i will feel the effects of this session, but how could i if i was not hypnotized, or was i???? Time will tell.... She did ask me to come back for another session.


Open your mind to the endless possibilities of expression.
Peace and Understanding
Aaza

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

Coooool, not sure I could ever let myself be hypnotized, but that floating experience sounds awesome!

-Mike

October 19, 2007 at 4:33 AM  

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